the night time talk - ways of life

life ain't easy as someone would suggest. people like to suggest that love is the hard part. others feel that hunger is. 'two eyed' billy's wife here feels raising cattle is. everybody is two eyed i suppose. but billy is called the 'two eyed' billy. i haven't come to a reason as to why he is called so. so i have this idea that u come right into the centre of the world, live up in the centre of the world and die out at the deepest corner of the world. and when you are buried off, they throw you out of the world of their minds. that's the sad part. they throw you out of their minds. and when your spirit look right into their eyes, your spirit knows they know you no more. there now, that's a fact. so you gotta live upto a point where they know you even when your spirit solidifies and materialize. not that you can do that. in fact you are not allowed to. and you can't. only Jesus can. and we are so heavily dominated by our instincts. these instincts here make up our ways of life. you may not know that. they make up the most of it. it's like a soldier walking right into the war. he does not know which man he is to kill but he does. he does not know why he kills but he does. he does not know when he's gonna take in a bullet but he surely does. instincts make up our life the very same way. you do not know when do you fall in love but you fall in love. you don't know why are you singing 'come together' by the beatles. hell boy. everyone knows the song. eveyone knows it's by the beatles. why the devil do you add 'by the beatles'??!!! but you sing the song. you do not know how you end up being a hippie but you end up being a hippie.

so you have a way of life. that's how it is. that's how it works. you may like it. you may not. most of the times, i guess it's always the first case. you always like your way of life. like i said last time around, i have mine. and i like it too. mary jane and little johnny likes it too. you know mary jane and little johnnny? yeah, they are 'two eyed' billy and his wife's cattle. that's what she calls them. i call them their kids. don't get into the town folks and get ya' asses back at home by seven or ya ain't gettin no supper. she yells at them every evening. mary jane feels i am a very pointless guy with no direct answer to a question but she has no problem with it. but she hates my beard. she doesn't like the fact that i don't wear the clothes she likes. no she ain't my girlfriend.she ain't my love. love. i'm gonna talk to you about love the next time i come to you.you gotta wait but i'll tell you. but she wants me to wear the good clothes. fashionable clothes. trendy and bright and shinin' clothes. she doesn't like the way i answer to her. she feels it's a very cruel form. now little johnny, he doesn't like my kind of songs. you know the bob dylans and the beatles and the johnny winters and the smokin' joe bands and all the bands and singers that sing about here and there in my room every now and then. they sound like shit. but i can't help him. he has his own ways. he doesn't like my poems, my books, my guns, my attitude, my laziness, my smoking, my drinking, my behaviour, my personality, my character, my pride and this can go on forever. but he likes me. he adores me like the way a begger adores a dollar. so since he likes me, i can bet you even for a wooden coin that he likes my way of life. because i am my way of life. so i guess in a different way, he likes my poems, my books, my guns........

ways of life make the person. if a person is rich, his way of life makes him to become rich. likewise so if he is poor. my father says, son, if you wanna be rich, be with the rich. if you wanna be poor, be with the poor. if you wanna be wise, you surely should stay with the wises and if you wanna be a fool, you surely should stay with the fools. that what he says. i remember his words every now and then. the words clearly audible in my mind and they are not hollow. poor folks nevernever become rich. that's because their way of life is as such that they would never be rich. some people like to wear cool stuff and talk cool stuff, you know. that's their kind of life. they'll always remain cool till their last breath no matter what happens. and you kinda start to realize what kind o f life you wanna lead by the time you are 18 to 22. by this time you have a straight head, a straight thought, a straight mind. by this time you are straight enough to know you are a hippie, to know you are a politician and so you politicies the world. by this time you are straight enough to know that you are gay and that you are willing to go the gay way for the rest of your life and so you go the gay way. that's what your way of life does to you bob. i can't help it. so you gotta choose your kind of life very wisely, the very way you choose a wife, or a can of beer or a marilyn monroe. sweet and bitter. you want your life to be sweet and bitter.

so i choose mine. it may be very odd. it may be very disturbing to some. it may be very annoying to others. but i choose the right one for me. so you should live up with it. i live up with others. hell yea, i don't come to your parties when you call, i don't laugh with you in your good times, i don't do good things with you. but at the middle of the night with a trouble that's troubling your mind, you call me up for help, that's when i'll come runnin' down for you. you can count on that. i may do or do not do things you like but devil's hell yea, i'll surely come runnin'.

i gotta go. my head is aching. i need a smoke and i'll get to sleep. remember love is what i'm gonna talk next time. you wouldn't want yourself to miss out on this. everyone wanna take a piece of advice about the effect and nature of love. good night.